Nervózny (adj.) – Nervous, jittery, irritated, annoyed, tense, restless, uneasy, uncomfortable, nervy, self conscious, neurotic.
It’s been more than a week since I last posted something. It’s all my fault really. I got lazy and distracted. It takes a lot of discipline to maintain a blog. And discipline is something I lack. The Slovak word of the day is nervózny. There are many Slovak words that look and sound like the English equivalents but they are actually false friends and nervózny is one of them. Slovakians use the word Nervózny for many situations. They feel nervózny when they are irritated by their co workers, when the driver in front of them drives too slowly, when they have to wait in a long line, when they are about to sit for an exam, etc.
Nervózny is also how I’ve felt in the past month. Well, the thing is, I blame myself for this. To start with, I haven’t been spending enough time learning Slovak. The main reason why I want to learn one Slovak word a day is because I really want to speak Slovak fluently. I am so tired of not understanding what is going on around me. Actually, the next time someone asks me why I still don’t speak Slovak I might just kick them in the crotch. Maybe I’m just being overly sensitive at this point but I find this question a bit condescending. What am I supposed to say? That I’m so stupid that I’m not capable of learning a new foreign language? That I’m as lazy as a …… (fill in the blank)?
I know I’ve been a bit too cozy in my own little bubble. It’s time to break out of this bubble and to really push myself. And that’s what I’ve been doing since the beginning of this year. Little baby steps. Part of the reason I feel nervózny could be because I’m stepping into new unfamiliar territories. Things appear to be intimidating and scary, people seem mean and unforgiving and even my friends seem to have abandoned me at times. Such a lonely and scary thing to do when you leave your comfort zone.
I have to keep telling myself that it’s ok to fail sometimes. Didn’t someone once said, “it’s the darkest before dawn?” Oh whatever. At the moment I need a way to control my feeling of “nervózny”. Maybe I should go learn a few Slovak swear words and start swearing only in Slovak.